I’ve had a dream recently in which I’m to take a written test of several pages. In waking life, I’ve struggled with taking tests though I’ve always passed.
In the dream I’m having a couple problems. The directions are in very fine print so small I can barely read them. The other problem is that some of the questions are about events I’ve not been interested in so haven’t paid attention. One event in the dream was of an award in 1992.
As I prayed with this dream I wondered how my vision of God’s working in my life is too small. How can I see more clearly and see the bigger picture of life?
What situations am I ignoring that would deepen my relationship with God?
I thought back to 1992. What would be beneficial for me to remember? Two significant events came to mind. In early 1992 I took a written four day exam. Though it was difficult, I passed. The second event was that I was ordained a transitional deacon. Both were life-changing as I made final preparations for priesthood ordination. I reflected on the many ways I was aware how God was with me, especially at that time. There were times that seemed like God had forgotten about me. Looking back, I now can see how God was directing me though I wasn’t aware at the time.
I wonder what long test am I about to take? Will it be long in duration? Will it be of short duration but feel like a long time? How will my life be changed?
I need to be mindful of God with me in whatever comes. These reflections helped put in perspective many current situations that seem like tests. God is always with us, even in the midst of struggles. Remembering God’s presence will help to have a broader vision knowing that God is in control.
Thank you for night dreams that help us reflect on your goodness. As we encounter situations that seem like tests that come in our lives, remind us of your presence and guidance. Give us a broader vision and greater understanding of your love and guidance. Amen.